what i've got.

Have you ever thought about how living a life is such a solitary experience? I mean, yes, you interact with hundreds of people a day, so it's not solitary completely all the time. However, you can never know what the people around you are experiencing. Life is different for every person in the world, because life is just a series of perceptions. No one is in your head listening to your thoughts, and no one is with you when you sit alone in your room when you think about the day you've just had. We all crawl out into the open for a few hours each day, and slip back into the privacy of our homes to mull over what's just happened.

Sometimes the idea that my life is the only life I'll ever get the chance to live is a little daunting and a little scary. It's a little frustrating and disappointing. I'll never know what it's like for my boyfriend, as in first hand knowledge. I'll never understand what it's like to be in his shoes. He can give me glimpses, and even if we got married one day, I still wouldn't have the whole picture. I like to think I'd have a pretty clear picture, but never fully. Maybe I wouldn't want to know. When I'm home alone, at night, my thoughts wander to wondering what other people in my network of friends is doing at that moment. I sometimes wish that I could switch places with them for just a few moments to see where they are, physically and emotionally.